I have sure gotten lax in my blogging, and in my loving; loving of myself that is. I've had so much going on at one time that I've all but completely let myself go.  I can't blame it all on my busy life though. I had stopped moving forward in my journey long before I got overloaded with the busyness of life.

   Last night,  I realized I had forgotten how to love myself and to put myself first.  My first priority has got to be ME and what I need to make me the person I want to be.

There's a song by Switchfoot called, "This Is Your Life" and the lyrics are "This is your life, are you who you want to be"

 

I'm NOT who I want to be and since this is MY life I can choose to be who I WANT to be. Now is the time to take care of me. And thank God I did not gain all of my weight back before I realized it. 

 

As an update I have put back on 12 pounds. I weighed at home this morning, and next Tuesday I'll WI at my meeting. 

 

I earned 3 AP tonight when I finished the TransFIRMer Ultimate Calorie Blaster 

This weekend Ed and I went to a wedding in Cincinnati and on the way home I met my first HOTTIE friend.

Dana and Mike met us at Perkins for breakfast this morning and we had a great visit.

I was a little nervous at first not knowing for sure what to expect but Dana turned out to be just as sweet, kind and caring as she is on the boards. Mike is just a nice as can be and the two are perfect for eachother. :-)

I've included a few pictures here of us. I don't look as nice in the pictures but Dana is more beautiful in real life than she is in pictures.

Dana you're the best! My love to you and Mike!

COME ON THERESA YOU CAN DO IT!!!

 

Those are the words I repeated to myself the other day when I was trying on clothes from my closet looking for something different to wear.

With each blouse and each pair of slacks I would say out loud, Come On Theresa YOU CAN DO IT!  Well sometimes I did and sometimes I came darn close from which I hold out with certainty that I WILL!
That phrase has carried over to my choice of exercise and food. Yesterday held great opportunities to jump ship. Our center catered pastries, donut holes and muffins to the remaining SRL Associates and when breakfast was over the goodies made their way into the main office where I had a numerous stand off with a donut hole. Each thought of how wonderful it would be to stuff as many in my mouth as I could while unnoticed was followed with Come On Theresa YOU CAN DO IT which gave way to remarkable NSVs!

I am my best cheering section and my biggest fan. My mother used to be that for me but now that she's gone I've recently realized that her words can cheer me on throughout the rest of my life. I'm the one that's there for me and I'm the one that can make every dream a reality.

I am finishing this journey with pride and confidence that anything I put my mind to I can achieve.

Come On Theresa YOU CAN DO IT!!

 

    

    I started CORE on Tuesday and failed on Friday. Well maybe not failed but I had too many points and I have an open house to attend tomorrow and a BD party on Sunday for which I was saving my 35 points. Darn it!

   Hey though it’s going to be fine. The days don’t always go as I’d like them to but what am I going to do with the time I have left this week?  Well I have 2 options- I can ignore that I don’t have enough points to eat what I wanted on Sat and Sun night or I can be responsible and earn extra APs and stay within my points.

   The only way to make progress is to make change. It’s imperative that I chose differently than I would have in the past- (my old fat life.) Therefore I commit to earning APs AND staying within my 35 weekly points.

   Saturday and Sunday are just days of the week. It’s what I do with those days and hours that matter. I have an opportunity to share myself with my family and many of whom I haven’t seen in a long time.  Sure some of them will be surprised at my weight but I’m still the loveable, outgoing and fun person I was back then.

   As I promised Aimee my WW leader I will commit  to the following activities: volleyball, croquet, and euchre.

   I’ll be back to report how I did with my goal. 

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I'll write later

My daughter has been gone for almost 3 weeks.  I missed her a lot a first but I've gotten very used to having the house to myself. It probably helps though that she thinks she's coming home in the fall before school starts so I know the peace and tranquility will come to an end. That's okay though. I look forward to her coming back. I think she's learning a few things about bein on her own.

Today was moving day. My 18 year old left the nest. We packed the truck this weekend and went out together to purchase her a TV and DVD player for her apartment. We had a great day but then this morning she left.

I know this is the way it’s suppose to be but no one could have prepared me for how hard it is to let her go. She’s my firecracker and I wasn’t finished with her yet. We finished packing the truck this morning with the rest of her things. I couldn’t help her move her clothes out so she was on her own there. And I couldn’t help her strip her bed and replace her comforter with an old worn out pink one she used to use when she was small. I can’t look in her room or her bathroom yet; maybe tomorrow.

 

We said our long good-bye and of course I was crying. She assured me she’d be back often and I wouldn’t even notice she was gone. I can’t do this I thought to myself. But there was NO WAY I could say so out loud. I’m not finished with her yet. I have so much more parenting to do. She needs me and doesn’t realize it yet.  I hope she knows how much I love her.

 

I miss my mom at times like this. She’s not there for me to talk to about how to handle these kinds of things. I guess I still needed my mom too and didn’t realize it either when I left. Now she’s gone and I need her more than ever. But I have God and I have my Father who was there for me this morning when I called him. He assured me that everything will be fine and this is a good thing for Nicole to step out on her own and see what the real world is like. I’ve prepared her as best I could and I am a good mother. It’s just another chapter.

I will be fine and I am okay.  I’ve re-applied my make-up for the second time and as soon as the redness is gone I’m heading into work.

To all my friends and especially the HOTTIES thanks for always being there for me. Pass me a tissue please.

My journey is more than just losing weight. It's also making healthy choices for my body and my mind.

 

Yesterday my friend Dana posted at 3:19PM that she was going to pop some popcorn and read a book! Boy did I envy her!  I wondered why I don't have time to do that or if I do it why I feel so stressed?

 

Well it's because I don'to have my house in order.  Yes I work a lot but there are many times when I'm home I sit and rest and I sleep 8+ hours a night so I'm usually in bed by 9:00.  If I work at Kohl's in the evening then I don't get to bed until after 11:00 which means the next 2 nights I'm in bed by 8:30.  With all of that it doesn't leave much time for getting my house in order.  So yesterday I decided to heck with the vacuuming, dusting, and mopping. I'm going to takle a job that I have been putting off therefore holding me hostage. 

 

Off to the sunroom I rolled and actually made a lot of progress!!  I'm basically finished cleaning it out but there are still 6windows to cover with heat deflective film then I can start thinking about painting and how I want to decorate. I'm so excited. I'm tring to think of some colors for the cement floor. I have a beautiful oriental rug that belonged to my mother so I'm taking up the wall to wall indoor outdoor carpet , paint the floor then use the rug in front of the couch and chair. At the other end of the room I'm going to use a new fancy aviary for my bird and keep him out there year round. It will be much easier to keep the floor clean without carpet. Then I can get new carpet for my family room and start getting it back in order.

 

Oh Happy Day!!!

 

 

Getting back on track takes lots of determination. Sometimes we have to really want something to have it.

I have been having a rough time on WW but I'm getting back on track. Today was a good day. Tomorrow will be a challenge since it's Mother's day and my daughters are taking me to Alexanders for dinner. I'm planning on the salad bar but we'll see. 

I'm also planning on earning APs before we go and eating a light lunch so I have plenty of points left for dinner.

 

 

 

 

Today is another good day although I stayed the same as yesterday that’s to be expected once in a while. I’m not so concerned in winning the 5LB Challenge but it would be nice to save the $10. Whoever wins deserves it!

Some of the HOTTIES are getting frustrated with their fluctuating weight. It’s going to be okay and Kim has told them not to pay such close attention to the daily weight.  This weight will come off and we’re all doing a fantastic job.

Today my daughters told me they could tell I’ve lost weight but no one at work has mentioned it. It kind of reminds me of when everyone was complimenting Ronda’s friend for losing weight and no one was saying anything to her and she had lost even more than her bowling buddy. I know it must have hurt because I wonder if people are just blind or what?  My answer is that I’ll just keep losing and someone here will say something some time. I hope.

This is the 2nd full day at the 5 LB CHALLENGE and I've lost 3 LBS!!!!  I know, I know; it's awesome!

Normally I'll lose easily if I stick to the program and include exercise, avoid salt and eat a medium breakfast, a large lunch and a small dinner. I also make sure to start and end the day with 1/2 grapefruit.

I don't know why that works but it does for me.

 

I'm looking forward to WI next Tues and with DBF out of town this weekend I won't be as tempted to order high point food from the menu.

 

At home I've reached a weight where I should reduce my points by 2/day so that means I'll drop from 28 to 26 points. I'm worried that when I WI on Tuesday and they take those 2 points from me that I'll go into shock so I asked Kim about it and she advised me to go ahead and reduce it one point.

Well I’m moving downward. I lost 1 lb from yesterday.

 

Yesterday ended up a good day with all of my points gone. I had to fast after 7:00 for lab work that needed to be done today for my leukopenia. I hope they find out what’s causing it.

 

Yesterday I should have mentioned that legally from WW standpoint I’m only 1.6 lb from dropping to 26 points/day. I’m not sure if that’s a good thing or not.

 

Oh! Guess what! A friend of mine saw me for the first time in 3 months and said, "You've lost weight!"

Yep! I have!